(via holl1ster)
Please take a moment to look at this photo; really look at it. Does it look like beauty to you? Putting this photo up is humiliating, but I feel it is something that needs to be addressed. This is only part of the harsh reality of what comes hand in hand with an eating disorder. I have suffered with anorexia for about eight years now, and my teeth are only one part of my body that has been destroyed because of it. I brush my teeth, but regardless of how well I care for my teeth they are rotting from the inside out and breaking away due to malnourishment and and malnutrition. There is no way to have an eating disorder and be healthy. Eating disorders do not cause beauty, and I cannot stress this enough. My hair falls out in clumps in the shower, my teeth are rotting, I suffer from Osteopenia, I don’t menstruate which is extremely detrimental to your bones, I barely go to the bathroom, I’m depressed, and I am not beautiful. I am an empty shell, and what is even worse is that when you fall as deeply into an eating disorder as I have; you don’t even care anymore. Please take care of yourselves and if you are just beginning to feel yourself sink into the hell of an eating disorder; speak with someone about it and get help, because you do not want to be in your early 20’s and have your body failing you like mine is.
Once I’ve gotten over most of it. I will put on my make-up, dress up, smile and socialise again with a blank soul. I will wake up in the morning, I will go to work. Because this is all superficial now.
